Thursday, February 26, 2009

Rooted, But Branching.

I am on a blogging roll this week!

So today was not as tense as other days. Especially not with the family, although there is always time for things to go south. Anyway, my father remarked on a family friend who is now 29 years old. She is still doing nursing school and is unmarried, without children. She's still living with her family actually. Anyway, my father was telling about all his accomplishments by that age, and then about my mother's. He's telling me that if I end up nowhere when I'm 30 he'll be very disappointed. He didn't physically state that, but he was totally hinting at it.

Life is so different from the "old country" though. Back there you're old at 40 and old at 26 if you're unmarried. Of course they frown on premarital whatnot and spending money. But these are all "normal things" these days.

Although I want to follow the traditions, it's hard not to get caught up on what's really happening. Peer pressure is difficult and people are getting sneakier. Some students choose to stick to silence and others choose to shout their opinions at the top of their lungs. "It's all about drinks, it's all about drugs and it's all about sex." Maybe for some people, but not everyone.

I think the worst part is the media, epecially television shows. Many of them show Americans like these crazy people. Especially Californians. As a member of this Golden State, with some random connections, I have to admit that not everyone here is a supermodel, Asian, superstar or Hispanic. Not everyone has money or is friends with some famous person and in the know. I happen to know a girl who lives in a northern area. She said the headlines of newspapers report dead bears in the street, not the latest A-List Abuse.

Anyway, with all these changes it's hard to do what is expected. May God have mercy on my parents if I one day go crazy.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Ashes to Ashes.

Besides the fact that it is again Hump Day, it is also Ash Wednesday! So to all those Catholics out there; Happy Lenten Season to you!

I usually give up food. And I have done so again this year. People always stare at me like I'm weird when I tell them what I've given up, and I suppose it does sound random.

1. Potatoes
2. Pasta/Noodles
3. $1 Taco Tuesdays and Wednesdays

Yep. That looks weird. But hey, better look closely at everything you eat. At least half of it consists of potatoes and pasta. The tacos... well, I might be able to save some cash [along with gasoline, time and calories] doing that. But when it's all over, I'll will probably go out and buy a whole five dollar's worth. I'm a big spender, see?

Speaking of big spenders, as I watched my KDrama, I noticed that again the rich boy threw his cellular phone down on the ground and stepped over it. [He was being all angst-y] Come on, do people really just have enough money to trash phones like that? What a waste. He also managed to buy one for his girlfriend, only because there was no other way to get a hold of her. Talk about possessive. Whatever, he's rich and cute. I guess it doesn't matter much after that. Jota Ka.

Yesterday my good friend, whom I shall call FahNay, and I have decided that we will marry very rich men and have as many children as we please. Because it would be ridiculous to keep having kids if you have to go out and work. However, if you've married a rich man, you might as well just stick to baby-making. Also a couple friends have taken the name of a certain teacher and turned it into a verb which means to molest. Not that he does that stuff, it's just that he always makes allusions to such "naughty" things. But, it could be worse. He could be mean and dull. You know who I'm talking about.

I've also realized that my concentration span has gotten a lot shorter with age. I hope I don't live to be too old, I might become an old crazy lady. |P Don't want that.

I guess it's time for me to do the math homework I've been avoiding all day. If I could get paid for avoiding things, I'd be a freaking millionaire... But for now, it's just a bad habit.

Monday, February 23, 2009

PMS is Crap.

So now that I've gotten over that rant, it's time to press forward.

I spent all of the next day watching a Korean Drama: Boys Before Flowers.

Even though all the kdramas I watch have the same formula [1 strong, poor, independent girl, of a wacky family, choosing between 2 men who are very good options] I always get sucked into it. Especially when there's a cute guy somewhere in there. [In this case the guy in a side romance: YiJung/ Kim Bum!!]

As a woman, which I will define as someone who receives her monthly gift, I am totally disappointed that Mother Nature showed up today. The day that Southern California has the most ridiculous weather: Rain to 78 Fahrenheit.

Well today someone uploaded the 15th Episode of BBF and I had to watch it. :D But there happened to be some really sad parts. And as my feelings are especially sensitive this week, I cried.

Just preposterous.

I don't know how women in Korea can take this.

But I still believe in my strength; I did not cry in the face of Shane West in A Walk to Remember. But I thought that movie was crap.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Lost.

It's one of those times again.

Friday was a long day. And I don't really want to talk about it.
Today/Yesterday, since it's midnight already, was lame.

I have been addicted to a KDrama.
I hate this. I love it. It's like a drug. Strange comparison. It's like a good book. I suppose I'm addicted to those too. If I classify something as an addiction, will I have enough strength and control to stop myself?

I'm overweight, with bad genes so now I've got what is technically a blood disease.

What the fck am I doing with my life?
My mother is upset. My sister is trying to encourage. And I am just lost.
Am I really full of potential, or just a potential disaster?
I can't concentrate too long these days.
I feel sick in the mornings. I never want to get out of bed.
I don't comb my hair much anymore. Makeup covers sleepiness and the fact that I am breaking out.
Is it pms?

Does my cousin's dream predict miracles are coming for my family? For her? Any miracle at all?

Am I destined to be a spinster? Will I ever really fall in love? Am I in love with my friend, or do I really just love him like a sibling?

I'm not doing bad things, I just don't have a plan. I don't know what to do. I can't believe I'm so freaking lost.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

El día de San Valentín!

I'm honestly not sure if he exists, but let's just assume that he does. :D So today is a day of love, and as many other people I'm am sadly Valentine-less. As always. And my only consolation is that my father always over does things for my mother, by which I mean, there is always plenty of chocolate to go around.

I'm not sure if it's because I'm sad or just exhausted, but I've been sleeping a lot more than usual lately. I slept around 12 hours last night. I think it might also be the weather. With the random winter storms, well I think them random, but then Yoo goes and reminds me that it's Global Warming.

I haven't written in a while, mostly because I've been so busy with school and then there was the Sacramento trip. Well I should elaborate on that, I went to a Capitol Leadership Experience almost 2 weeks ago. It was great. I met a bunch of new people, learned a lot about the government system of passing laws, [obviously, it's a legislative thing.] noticed how bad the budget crisis was, met the district Senator, learned that the people who work in there have bowling tournaments for fun, [they're regular people!] and well, missed 3 days of school. That part started out fun, but when we got back the work load was absolutely ridiculous.

Then it started to rain a lot more.

2/6/09 I watched Coraline in 3D with Yoo, Steph, and Sufjan. [All of which are nicknames.] Then we went to Rowland Heights to visit my old house. I met up with my old friend Stephanie and we caught up, although she reminded me of one of my first boyfriends. [If he counts.]

2/9/09 was when our school celebrated Washington's Birthday.

2/12/09 was the most horrible morning ever.

2/13/09 was Friday the 13th, they aren't usually too bad for me, but apparently they are for my sister who ended up getting food poisoning. Then we went to the dentist, who is like 30 minutes away. I don't understand why our dentist is 30 minutes away, we really should have gotten someone closer. I have almost cavities, so they put this enamel thing on/in my teeth, so now when I bite my teeth don't touch each other, just that enamel stuff. It feels like cement in my mouth. And that lady got it on my inner mouth skin, so when my tongue touches it, it's all out of place. Good way to top off the night though, watching a new episode of Psych, which was scary and fun all together.

And now we're basically up-to-date. My mouth hurts a little more because of my growing wisdom teeth. I watched Avatar all day. I went to church. There was a cute guy sitting in front of me, or I think he was cute. He had an attractive back, and I do not mean his buttocks! [Although there wasn't much there, sadly.] But he was a bit snobby, complete turnoff.
My mother made too much food for dinner. And people have been saying Happy Love Day! Well good day to you too, but I'm not feeling it. Oh well, maybe next year! |P