Lost.

It's one of those times again.

Friday was a long day. And I don't really want to talk about it.
Today/Yesterday, since it's midnight already, was lame.

I have been addicted to a KDrama.
I hate this. I love it. It's like a drug. Strange comparison. It's like a good book. I suppose I'm addicted to those too. If I classify something as an addiction, will I have enough strength and control to stop myself?

I'm overweight, with bad genes so now I've got what is technically a blood disease.

What the fck am I doing with my life?
My mother is upset. My sister is trying to encourage. And I am just lost.
Am I really full of potential, or just a potential disaster?
I can't concentrate too long these days.
I feel sick in the mornings. I never want to get out of bed.
I don't comb my hair much anymore. Makeup covers sleepiness and the fact that I am breaking out.
Is it pms?

Does my cousin's dream predict miracles are coming for my family? For her? Any miracle at all?

Am I destined to be a spinster? Will I ever really fall in love? Am I in love with my friend, or do I really just love him like a sibling?

I'm not doing bad things, I just don't have a plan. I don't know what to do. I can't believe I'm so freaking lost.